i’ve been carrying around a must-blog burden for days. then the thought suddenly crossed my mind that my blog's one-year anniversary was probably coming up. coincidentally, i checked on it today and discovered that today, in fact, is my blog's birthday. my "blogiversary."
so it's been one year. and funny where i find myself: emerging from the last few weeks like i’m crawling from the trenches.
i don’t mean to sound overly dramatic. but ever since i’ve returned from india, every moment that i haven’t been insanely busy at work, i’ve basically been unearthing everything i am and throwing everything i value around and upside down. now, i’m standing dizzily in the chaos of my freshly-challenged mind – squinting at the haze and starting to determine what i need to do first. deciding what to meticulously untangle or gently replant or clobber or toss out.
i feel a bit like a car wreck. but it’s ok. truly. cause i read once that “glass shines brighter when it's broken.”
so in all the upheaval, i guess i've been kind-of avoiding blog. it hasn’t exactly been the platform i’ve wanted to expose all my madness on. not this madness, anyway. it just feels a little too raw. and, well, blogging requires a certain amount of cool, you know? one never wants to throw one’s madness around haphazardly. it’s very hard to blog without being strategic or self-aware. and i haven’t really cared about sounding “cool” lately. i don’t mean “cool=laid-back” — i mean “cool=james dean” or “cool=the fonz.”
i don't want to lie—i know i’m still a sucker for cool. but my priorities have shifted a bit. and it isn't just the culture shock talking.
but hey. this is all beside the point. it’s ma blog’s birthday, dammit, and i love my blog. because with all of the highs and lows this past year, i’m truly grateful to have it documented this way. so although i didn't do anything special for my blog's birthday like a cool site redesign, i did dig through my archives and compile a "best of" list.
sorry. it's completely un-fonz-like. but here it is anyway: (in chronological order)